Beta's this morning were 8000 and progesterone was 83 which my doctor says is good. but i am worried that it is lower than the 89 of last week. being pregnant afer miscarriages is such a worrying experience. all the excited expectation is gone and if i dare to daydream of what could be in 9 months time. i scold myself with things like "don't think that yet it could all come crashing down". I really hope i get to hear this baby cry.

the real deal???????

my betas were 518 yesterday which in in range for 4-5 weeks (4wks 2 days) and my progesterone was 89 which is good. So i guess this could be the real deal. next betas/progesterone are on monday. I am really hoping that we can cellar the bottle of Green ginger wine for 8 months.
I am so happy to have another shot at another baby, I am so terrified of what i now have to loose and whether i can cope with another miscarriage. and being pregnant again makes me miss my angels like mad. My second angel should not have been and this pregnancy shouldn't be either because i should have a 4 month old. but reality sucks sometimes, and unfortunatly we have no choice but to live with reality.
Prayers please everyone.

Progress update

It seems Mr Murphy has been a little tempted Aunt Flo is a day late. I peed on a stick this am and it was positive. So now i'm off to get bloods done to see if its a chemical pregnancy or the real deal.
For those of you that read my blog that are also my friends in the real world. please keep this a secret. if it is the real deal i'm not announcing it to the general public till after the 12 week scan.
Fingers crossed everyone.

Today i'm half way through the dreaded 2ww. Hubby and i have convinced ourselves it won't work he has even gone and bought a bottle of green ginger wine ( we haven't had it before and thought it sounded interesting) to share with AF when she arrives. i'm secrety hoping it will tempt murphy's law enough to keep her away.

Progress Update

Sorry for the delay in this post i haven't had a spare moment to update untill now.
Aunt flow paid a belated visit. she took a detour it turns out i had a chemical pregnancy. I'm unsure as to whether it was caused by the Pregnyl injections or not. i had positive betas but they only got to 30 instead of 200 and then started to go down. I had to take progesterone pessaries just in case it was the real deal but AF arrived anyway. So i'm feeling pretty diaspointed and a tad cross that it has delayed this cycle. i'm just trying to put it behind me and get back on the horse.  it feels like i was just being teased with the idea of being pregnant, to have it fizzle in my face.

Munchkin is 2

My beautiful little girl is 2 we have been surrounded by family and friends and she had a great party with a treasure hunt. I have been reflecting on how i had just found out i was pregnant with my first angel on her first birthday party day. and i'm not pregnant now. for me it was a day of mixed emotion. But munchkin loved every second of the festivities so all the effort of putting on her party whilst feeling a tad blue was worth it. I made her a Jemima puddle duck birthday cake.