David's Birthday

Today is the Day that my bubba boy should have been entering the world. Cookie should still be a distant dream. Today i should be counting tiny fingers and toes. and enjoying the smell of a freshly bathed newborn baby. but once again today my arms are empty. Instead of dressing my little boy in the colour of the heavens he is there already. I miss you, David and love you more than you will ever know.  xxoo

Cookie!!!

Cookie is good. heart rate 160. and growing ok i'm just worried about my BhCG's as they are down to 88000 now from 146000 a couple of weeks ago the doc says this can happen and isn't worried I'm just worried as i didn't think they plateaued till after 12 weeks not 9 weeks. but so long as Cookie is good i guess it doesn't matter.

Scared stupid

Last night i noticed a brown discarge form me. it is like old blood brown. and now i'm petrified that cookie is gone already. It is a long wait to 12:20 when you are counting microseconds. prayers please everyone.

The pain returns

Last friday afternoon the low abdominal pain returned and has done every afternoon since. I am just praying that everything is ok. next scan is on Thursday. I really want Cookie to be mine to hold.

Cookie!!!

Cookie is Good! measuring 9wks 5days I'm 9wks 3days. and heart rate 167. please pray that i get to keep Cookie all my other miscarriages were between 9 and 10 weeks.

Cookie might be in trouble

today's bloods weren't glowing progesterone thanks to the pessaries was 107 but BhCg was 147388 which is a high number but it almost hasn't budged from last wed. and i have to wait till wed for another scan it is a very anxious wait. please pray with me that Cookie is OK.

Cookie!!!!

Cookie is good! i am 8 wks 3 days and little Cookie is measuring 8 wks 5 days with a heart rate of 180bpm. Fingers crossed things stay good everyone i'm dreading wk 10 already.

The pain stopped 2 days ago but now I'm worried that everything else has stopped too. U/S is tomorrow it can't come fast enough. fingers crossed everyone.

a little concerned

I have been having bad lower abdominal pain lately i'm worried Cookie might be ectopic. except the pain goes away with rest. It is also only in the evening starts around 4-5 in the evening and continues till bedtime. which is terrible as that is when we need dinner cooked munchkin bathed and in bed it is impossible for me to put my feet up for 4 hrs at this time of day. Hubby has been cooking dinner and bathing munchkin but i still have to climb the stairs and read the stories for her to sleep. I have had some cramping and pain with all my miscarriages but not munchkin so it is doing nothing to make me think that cookie will be mine to keep. and my counsellor is on holiday till feburary.(right on time to pick up the peices if we find out in wk 10 that Cookie is gone) hopefully my first scan next wed will be some good news.

home again

Hi all,
          We are home from visiting the family for Christmas. We had a lovely time although because off all the rain we only got to the beach twice. Munchkin really enjoyed playing with her cousins. And she was really excited about Christmas. It was funny when on Christmas morning she was getting stuck into opening her Santa presents when Grandad pointed out that Santa had left the fireplace door open. She straight away scooted to the other side of the room not too sure if Scary Santa was about to make a reappearance.
I am 7 weeks now and bloods so far look good I have an acupuncture appointment this afternoon.
I must admit that whilst trying not too i have already fallen in love with 'Cookie' named because a really want to cook this one. Fingers and toes crossed that i get to keep this one.